regaining my perspective

Lord God, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for how easily I get distracted from You. I'm sorry that I turned to idols today... that I allowed my feelings, emotions, and the lies that were going through my head to dictate my actions. I'm sorry that I did not turn to You for comfort. 

Thank you Abba Father, for your compassion and grace. Thank you that You stand by my side, patiently waiting for me to turn back to You. To stop ignoring You, to humble myself, and to turn back to You. Thank you that You do not expect perfectionism. That Your love does not change and is not based on my actions. That my worth is not based on how I feel about myself or how I perform. 

Lord, help me to give myself grace. Help me to not get knocked down but to simply move forward in truth. Lord God, turn my heart to You. Do what only You can do in my heart tonight. 

As I allow myself to get a bigger perspective than just tonight, I do have to stop and thank You for the victories You have given me. For the growth I have seen. For the healing and freedom You continue to work in my heart and life. Yet, I acknowledge that does not mean the struggle or battle is over. This road is a journey. It will have bumps along the way. I will not always get it right. Yet I can choose to learn from my mistakes. I can choose to walk in grace. I can choose to declare the truths of who I am in Christ. I am forgiven, I am worthy, I am set free, I am an over comer, I am royalty, I am loved- oh so deeply loved and cherished-  I am His beloved. These truth does not change. I can not earn them so I can not lose them. I may not always choose to believe them or walk in them yet they do not change. It is my identity in Christ. Whether I choose to embrace and live in my identity is up to me. Praise God that more days than not I am walking in this identity. I used to put on this identity every once in a while yet it was hard for me to walk in. Yet, more and more it is truly becoming who I am. I truly am believing it and I am seeing how it changes how I live. Yet there are still times when it is easy to turn back to who I once was. Yet, I am an over comer by His grace and by His power.

I am grateful that God allowed me to stumble across a friend's blog tonight. I was given a new and fresh perspective as I read her thoughts. She wrote in the midst of her pain and yet she reminded me of who God was and related truth in such an honest way. Thank you Lord for the gift of others. Thank you that our lives are not about us. May my eyes turn back to YOU, the Almighty God. My Abba Father. For I belong to You.