More than we could ask or imagine

“Now to Him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to His power that is at work within us, to Him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.” Ephesians 3:20-21

This past spring I felt God reminding me and challenging me with these verses. I felt Him speaking to my heart- my daughter I love how you are content and satisfied in Me. However don't give up hope for I know your heart and when I bring the right man into your life, I can do more than you could ever think or imagine. Trust me even though you can not see what I have in store. Remember the times in your life that You have seen me do this in your life “more than you could ever ask or imagine” and continue to have faith in My greatness.

“Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart... The Lord directs the steps of the godly. He delights in every detail of their lives." Psalm 37:4, 23 

This summer I turned 30 and went on the most amazing birthday trip to Prince Edward Island. God gave me the above verses during this trip. I had to first surrender what my original plans were for the trip I wanted to take. Yet as I waited and trusted in God, He blew me away through my trip to PEI. At the end of the trip, I was amazed at what I thought I had wanted in a trip but seeing how God knew better than I even did the desires of my heart. I was blown away by how God's hand of detail was seen throughout the entire trip and how He directed every step of it. And I felt God speaking once again to my heart. My beloved daughter, trust me. This trip is but a foreshadowing of what I have in store for you. Just as you laid down your ideas and expectations for this trip, I am asking you to lay down your ideas and expectations of what you are looking for in a relationship. I want you to trust me that I know the desires of your heart better than you do for I am the one who placed them in your heart. And just as You have seen my hand upon every detail of this trip, in the same way You will see my hand upon every detail of when I bring the right man into your life. I take delight in every detail of your life for you are my beloved daughter and oh how I love you.

God has a sense of humor. I never realized this growing up but I am now beginning to appreciate this about Him. This summer, I felt God leading me to go on eharmony (that is another side story) but for me this was a step of trusting Him. I literally told God- it's easier for me to have faith that You could bring someone in my life while I was on the mission field of Africa than to believe you could send someone into my life through online dating. Yes, I realize that this is opposite of most American girls mentalities but this is what I told God. And here is God's sense of humor. I met Stephen... who is originally from Africa and who is in ministry. I can just see God smiling now.

Stephen is a pastor of a small church outside of Boston. His adoptive family lives out in Washington State. There are many things I could tell you about him ...I love how he makes me laugh, how incredibly thoughtful he is, how we both share a love of people and worship music, how he is passionate about God, and I could go on and on.

However what I love the most is the fact that I am drawn closer to God through our relationship instead of being distracted from God. I am grateful that my identity is still firmly grounded as God's Beloved and I simply get to enjoy the additional blessing of being with Stephen. For me to be able to say and know that both of those statements are true in my heart is an incredible testimony of the healing God has done in my heart and life. God is so good.

God is already blowing me away through our relationship. Those who know me, know how I am a very emotional person. While I am incredibly happy, my emotions feel strangely intact. I truly feel like I am stepping back and watching God unfold something truly beautiful. That I get to simply rest in His love and watch Him unfold the story He has already written one day at a time.

For there is such a peace when I remember that my life is all about Him and for His glory.